Monday, August 29, 2011

One pot sweaty hand and so ended my season...

It's hard to believe that my season is over....I have put so much energy, commitment and hard work into this year and deciding to try qualify for Hawaii.

After Steelhead I had picked friend Pedro Gomes up and we returned back to NJ where I would spend the next few days deciding what my next step in racing would be.
With being so close to qualifying for Kona all season...although I was iin the Top seemed like all the girls were going to make the push and race another IM to secure or try get the last remaining spots.
I knew if I did not race I would either be the last girl to qualify or I would just miss it.
So Coach Jesse Kropelnicki and I agreed that I would race IM Canada.
So I went back into a 30 hour training week. This was going to be one quick build and taper.
It was great having Pedro here and I got through the week and was on my last big ride. I had done a 6 hour ride the day before and decided to head up the coast for a 4 hour steady ride.
I was definitely running on empty when we hit the Atlantic Highlands Hills. We had done the hills and were almost about to head home. I turned a corner headed down a steep hill and hit a hand slipped off the bar as it was so humid and I had not worn gloves. I was going fast and fishtailing. I tried so hard to stay up but I hit hard and blacked out! From this point I don't remember anything until I was in the ambulance.
Apparently I fell and kept rolling down the hill and landed in a nice ditch of water. My beautiful Kestrel cracked in a few places showed just how hard my body hit the ground.

I knew my shoulder/collarbone was broken ...I was in severe pain which the guys at the trauma ward never really care about because they have seen so much worse. In seconds my clothes were cut off and the morphine was flowing and my reality was setting in. I don't remember them doing a cat scan or x rays but soon they reported that I had broken my clavicle. By that point Hank and the kids were there and the position I was in was feeling way to familiar....I had been in a similar crash two years ago.

I immediately called friend and orthopedic surgeon extraordinaire Dr Goldberger from Advanced Orthopedics in Freehold who kindly came over to see me... I am so thankful to him for immediately putting me at ease. He looked at my x-rays and gave me the options. Surgery for me was going to be the best option.

We planned on surgery Mon which meant a two day wait. This gave me time to realize how the rest of my body was doing. I was very thankful to have no other breaks....
I had X-Rays done on my knee/hip and hand....not sure if they did my ankle but the whole left side of my body was a big swollen mess of abrasions.

I got to go home for a night before heading to Centra State hospital for surgery. Surgery was a blur of anasthesia and then the next week has been a blur of discomfort and pain!
It is very hard to go from athlete with 20-30 hour training weeks to being totally immobile dealing with the reality that my season is officially over. There is a deep sadness that comes when you cannot do what you love to do, but you have to remain positive and see the light at the end of the tunnel!

I am so thankful to all those who reached out to help....To Dr Goldberger who went above and beyond in his surgery, nurse and friend Liz Donahue who answered my endless questions, all the beautiful flowers, the dinner friends brought over. My husband and kids who have been at my beck and call and who have seen me through some very frustrating painful moments.

So happy to be off the Percocet and on the upswing!!

Also thanks to my Trakkers teammates for all yout good wishes and cards, and to all of you the reached out to me. Us athletes all know how devastating crashes can be....


Bre said...

oh jacqui...:( biggest hugs and heal fast wishes have been sent.
I can't pretend to understand what it's like to try to qualify for Kona and to have your season taken from you but I know what it's like to be injured and not be able to do something you love.
There is a reason that this happened, and in the end you will be stronger for it. Kona isn't going to have anything on you in 2012.

"Often the very challenges we think are holding us back are, in fact, making us stronger. You should be open to the possibility that today's handicap might be tomorrow's advantage." Nick Vujicic (Life without Limits)

Judy said...

Wow - when you do things you always go all the way - and this unfortunately was no exception. I know you have a lot of base and what seems bad now could be better sooner than you think. Athletes heal fast! Thank goodness it was all so fixable. Keep us posted! Hawaii will always be there!!

Kelly said...

Holy cow girl, i just read the account of your crash. You did it up right didn't you? I took a spill monday and was w/o doc visit (that was last nov) but left me w/ some good abrasions, bruising, pain and a lite setback. Common tie to.yours was that fatigue... I think i was over tired and my focus, attention was lacking. We don't acknowledge that until it is too late, do we? Take care.of yourself, you will, without a shadow of a doubt, come back stronger in 2012. Heal up. :) -Kelly W

Jacqui said...

Thanks Judy...You are right!!! Racing will always be there if I want it!
Kelly, sometimes our bikes become such an extension of us that we forget how vulnerable we are on them. I was definitely running on empty just waiting for the taper again....We push ourselves so hard...because we love what we do sometimes to our own detriment!!!! Be safe out there!!! Look forward to watching and cheering for you in Kona!!

Jenn said...

Wow Jacqui, how awful! Wishing you a speedy recovery. Feel better!

mdsi2000 said...

Oh Jacqui,
I'm so sorry to hear about your accident. You have the spirit of a warrior and you will return much stronger. Meantime have a healthy recovery and listen to your doctors and coach.

God bless...
-Peter Gonzalez

Jacqui said...

Thank you Peter and Jenn!