Thursday, December 10, 2009

Personal battle!


Yesterday I moved my bike session onto the trainer due to a quick storm that rolled in with torrential rain and flooding on the roads. This was my first hard session on the trainer of the new season. Being on the trainer always brings me to a new focus. Without the distraction of cars,traffic lights,flying garbage cans, you can really take your mind to another place. I am however disappointed at myself. I need to get tougher...that's all! I am not training to my potential and I am mad about it! Last night, I was happy to get through the workout and felt like I did a good job. Today however I have a different opinion. I think I give myself alot of excuses like my power is good and I did all the repeats, it's early in the season, I am still building a base...when the going got tough which was very early into the workout I told myself that I was digging deep and I tried to focus. I used thoughts like "pain is temporary" and " I can do anything for a minute" But I am still not happy with myself. You see I am settling for what I can do..but it is not good enough. I need to push myself ,my brain and my body harder to make that break through. Instead of just being happy that I finished the workout I need to finish it well. I except when my legs start to fatigue and my heart rate is high and my power starts to drop...but it is not acceptable. So with this realization of mental weakness I can't wait for my next hard workout where I can have the opportunity to dig deeper and push the mental aspect of my training more! Less focus on the pain,the heavy legs, the lack of fitness and more on nailing the workout, not letting up,pushing above and beyond!

7 comments:

Mark said...

Great post Jacqui! I know this all too well. I keep results pages—splits and all—from my previous season in my offices at home and work to remind me throughout the day to stay motivated. It works for me.

marlinbonnet said...

goodjob!........................................

Tracy said...

Yikes....I hear you, why don't you come to CA to train for the winter with me and get my behind going too!
Tracy

BreeWee said...

PERFECT post........ LOVED it! I so wish you and I lived closer to train through some of these kind of days! BEST of everything in 2010!!

Marcos Apene do Amaral-TriPhiloSophia said...

Best 2010! From your new supporter, Marcos!

Marcos Apene do Amaral-TriPhiloSophia said...

The Paulo you mention is Paulo Sousa, the portuguese coach?! Hope it is as I love his approach and that you also can be an international follower of my own blog!
Hope you can focus on getting the BEST job done out of your training sessions, count on the energies from that fan, Marcos!

Jacqui said...

Thank you Marcos! Yes it is the one and only Paulo Sousa who is and has been my coach for the last three years :-)
Good luck to you for 2010...I do hope to do IM Brazil one of these years! I shall definitely check out your blog!
Cheers
Jacqui