Personal battle!

Yesterday I moved my bike session onto the trainer due to a quick storm that rolled in with torrential rain and flooding on the roads. This was my first hard session on the trainer of the new season. Being on the trainer always brings me to a new focus. Without the distraction of cars,traffic lights,flying garbage cans, you can really take your mind to another place. I am however disappointed at myself. I need to get tougher...that's all! I am not training to my potential and I am mad about it! Last night, I was happy to get through the workout and felt like I did a good job. Today however I have a different opinion. I think I give myself alot of excuses like my power is good and I did all the repeats, it's early in the season, I am still building a base...when the going got tough which was very early into the workout I told myself that I was digging deep and I tried to focus. I used thoughts like "pain is temporary" and " I can do anything for a minute" But I am still not happy with myself. You see I am settling for what I can do..but it is not good enough. I need to push myself ,my brain and my body harder to make that break through. Instead of just being happy that I finished the workout I need to finish it well. I except when my legs start to fatigue and my heart rate is high and my power starts to drop...but it is not acceptable. So with this realization of mental weakness I can't wait for my next hard workout where I can have the opportunity to dig deeper and push the mental aspect of my training more! Less focus on the pain,the heavy legs, the lack of fitness and more on nailing the workout, not letting up,pushing above and beyond!